Lost my virginity! August 16, 2011

Note: Well, this post title could be very controversial, please hold back your comments and reactions until you finish reading the post.

It all started in a slow pace.. Cool breeze.. Dim lighting.. A cup of cool drink, what more to ask for the a good evening…I never knew it was going to be the way it turned to be…

It was my first time.. Hesitation, curiosity and eagerly lookin for the time I m going to spend and experience… There was very less crowd, and it started growin big and big as the time passed… The music was on, getting louder and louder with every beat almost hitting my ears and entering my body like a REAL HEARTBEAT.. People all around me were doing it like it was so natural, without any hesitation and like it was not in their control… I was wondering and while I was still wondering and wandering… I was pulled into it… Then, dint know how to start, was feeling very uncomfortable at the beginning, but then I let go myself with all the hesitation and fear. And “if and then and else “… Slowly I got into the beat of the music and following the majority there… I did it wrong for the first few times, and after few more attempts I still was not doing right…

But what I felt was, though I dint do it right or even get nearby right.. I was not regretting, cos it was my first time, and I had let myself go from my own boundaries and just followed the flow..

On 13th august… Night I lost my virginity of dancing to the music beats of disco… I lost it in blue waves.. Disco…

Well.. Now ur comments please!!!

New entry in my life!!! August 16, 2011

When somebody enters your life, it makes a lot of changes in your life… Isn’t it? Yes it does, sometimes it makes you laugh, feel hesitant, smile, doubt or even question it was the right decision to make. Well with all the questions, I welcome my new ipy to my life… Oh by “ipy” I meant, IPAD.. Yes i did get it, from my closest buddy…thank u gube… this post is dedicated to him …

Right now, writing this on my ipy!

Indifference!! August 1, 2011

Indifference : Meaning:.. “Lack of interest”.. Well, another way of understanding this as “Oppositve of Love”.. this word has been bothering me quite a lot and creating lot of confusions, more to do with understanding what really Love is!! If indifference is “Lack of interest”, then Love got to be “having more of interest”.. .is it all?
if its not just that, then Love got to have more than one opposites!.. well thats not convincing enough! isnt it!!
have you ever felt, that being in a relationship is just so wonderful like you have never felt this way ever before.. do u call this Love? may be not so early!!! have you ever felt the same way even after years of being in the same relationship!!! May be yeah it is Love.. but in between, there is a state which keeps creeping in, that is the state of being “Indifferent” towards the other person in relationship!! Then do we call OFF the Love? may be not.. may be yes.. well, its confusing..

Still confused.. what I understand is, while we all are in a state of indifference one time or the other.. lets accept that.. even towards the closest of the person.. may be for a minute.. so.. that doesnt mean we have no LOVE towards each other!! May be its just too much of Love to take at once.. May be being indifference makes you realize that it is different..  may be the state of indifference makes the relationship worthy of continuing?

Still trying to understand .. the feelings swing from LOVE to INDIFFERENCE to LOVE to INDIFFERENCE.. infinity!!! thats relationship!